6:04 Starbuck’s Hill Street – Crossing the great divide – been practicing for 14 years. Now to just BE it. The day started with 2 warnings. First I set off the car alarm as I juggled keys and camera, journal and walking shoes for the trip to Joshua Tree for the weekend retreat. Then as I prayed thanking the Saturn for making the trip, knowing and affirming I want to make it with the Saturn and not a rental car – right then the coolant light came on, letting me know its needs. OK there’s plenty of time for a quick trip to Caesar at More Joy and ‘fess up about mixing motor oils – on accident.
Uh uh – not how this week end is going down. Not a log of what I’m doing wrong but a celebration of what IS. Crazy as it sounds, silly as it may be, this is a great gift and it’s been and continues to be a wonderful, wonder-filled, life. Thank you Saturn for your part in it.
OK yes the fantasy is more than an audience, it affirms my place at the center of the universe. An illusion. A delusion. And all perfectly human.
Oh boy, now the bathroom won’t open even thought the 14789 code (which is L-shaped for “loser on the key pad) flashed green and then failed to open the door. So, no, there is no secret code – only Divine Spirit opens the doors.
See the divide – the fear that all these are dire warnings or worse, that giving any meaning at all to the random events of life is just plain crazy and this house of cards I’ve created will surely….yadda. When the truth is – all such meanings are made up and just as true as anything. If dreams come true, then nightmares can too. It’s all just air – just “energy. But air, after all, sustains us. We couldn’t live without it.
…she writes to the air.
Yes that’s what I especially like about the movie, the one I wrote – my movie – the twist from “crazy” Josie to revealing everyone’s fantasy of themselves and the ultimate showdown of Josie and Lance and their fantasy visions – is well maybe not perfect yet – but really quite wonderful. Hm, flash an ending with the yard full of the people and the phantom fantasy figures. Whatever, I love the bit of the ambiguous Lance/X ending.
Anyway, the thing I want to ground right now is I wrote it. Yes I had a fantasy and yes I DID DO something with it. That may or may not get me the fantasy Academy Award but it will surely get me what Divine Spirit intended. See this universal energy flowing for the universal good – and surf it! No idea how to do that. Have to fall off the board in the learning. But wait – this intention setting is not Divine Spirit’s part – it is mine – ours. To surf we need first get the board and then get in the water, try and fail and try and surf and come back on shore, go home and start all over again
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