Today's Really Early Sunrise over the Malibu Pier

Always dream and shoot higher than you know how to. Don't bother just to be better than your contemporaries or predecessors. Try to be better than yourself. …William Faulkner
6:27 Starbucks Cross Creek
Oh my. Early. How can this never cease to amaze me just how early sunrise can get? And almost too bright to capture at that. Why am I where am I? Standing on this planet, sitting actually, along for this ride it seems.
The life that is is magnificent. The life that is is wonderful. The life that is is divine. Thank You God for the life that is.

Today's Sunrise Proclaims Its Presence at Point Dume in Malibu

Listen to the mustn'ts, child. Listen to the don'ts. Listen to the shouldn'ts, the impossibles, the won'ts. Listen to the never haves, then listen close to me... Anything can happen, child. Anything can be. …Shel Silverstein
Today it feels good to know Mom is not in Chicago suffering / failing / in danger. Knowing she is released from the cage of that aged body that had served her so long so well.
So thank you Mom, thank You God for passing on such healthy genes to me. Now what may I do with this promise of longevity?  There is no guarantee but what If I am headed for 93? What may I do with those 30 years. Morning pages @ 5/year = 150 more journals?  I think I’d be pleased to capture 365 x 30 = 10,950 more sunrises. That would not be wasted time. No it just takes one special event to make all 11,000 days appear worthwhile in the judgment of some. Never the judgment of all.
So what’s for supper?

Today's Sunrise Drizzles over Magestic Point Dume

No one ever did anything worth doing unless he was prepared to go on with it long after it becomes something of a bore. ….Douglas Steere
6:29 Starbucks Trancas
Raining. Well, drizzling really. Oh my I’m so tired this morning. Well yeah after late choir rehearsal last night. A fabulously energetic and late one closing with Tim’s “Stepped In the Water / Wade In the Water.” I’m thrilled to get to perform it Sunday. Was afraid I’d missed my chance at the Revelation Conference I didn’t attend since I’d missed all its rehearsals. I’m baaccckkk.
Subtle-y glowing sunrise-not at Point Dume. I’d just thought about not seeing a dolphin in ages when one appeared. Just one, not a pod, arching gracefully in the “wrong direction.” Trying to find his buds? Though it rained there too, I didn’t get wet.

May 4, 2010 Sunrise For Mother's Transition

There are some things that never, ever leave us....A mother's love is one of them.
My beloved Mother, Eleanor DeMille, died this day at 6PM. My dear sisters, my children and I were all there to see her so gracefully waltz away with Dad to the other side of the veil.
Thank You, Mom, Thank You.
For staying home and being found most times in the kitchen–doing Your Work. Thank You Mom
For keeping a pretty garden. Thank You Mom
For nicely browned pot roasts and crispy roasted chicken. thank You Mom.
For filling a barrel full of green apples from our tree and making apple thins and applesauce. Thank You Mom
For watching TV a lot and not bothering me about much except smoking. Thank You Mom.
For marrying the man of your dreams and so letting me know such a thing exists. Thank You Mom.
For not walking me to school. Thank You Mom.
For giving me Dad’s car after he passed. Thank You Mom.
For making clothes for me to match Donna’s. Thank You Mom.
For loving my children so. Thank You Mom.
For supporting me when it really really counted. Thank You Mom.
For being my Mom…...Thank You Mom.

Today's Sunrise- Blinded by the Light in Malibu

We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. …Marianne Williamson
6:23 Starbucks Cross Creek.
A beautiful day. Sun shines bright. Coffee’s good. Leaf blower blows very few leaves around the parking lot. OK, come within. To the peaceful place. Watched the sun light up the mountain from PCH. Took it in fully as it revealed itself too bright to gaze upon directly for long. Our good old sun. One of millions in our galaxy, just one of billions in the Universe. Our source of light and our source of life.
Been transcribing the morning pages from the time of Mom’s transition. Found the brief Thank You Mom litany there. Going to post it with the magnificent sunrise from May 4, the day Mom died. The one that called her so peacefully to the other side of the veil.
OK so what’s the answer? Do I contact John deLancie about the movie -and how? That Q again. Am I to just wake up one morning and let that one go? Is that the next step in consciousness for me? I suspect not. THINK I may have all the call from God I’m ever gonna get. Now it’s up to me to ground this dream. To face the truth whatever that is – face the NO, face the YES. Grant myself a YES either way, a both/and. How how how?
Oh how I hear the answer given to me so long ago. That I may only have what I really really really want when I no longer want it. When I release the desire….sigh.
Hm, free floating joy floats on over me. I am so grateful, so very thankful, for this conundrum, this predicament, this Q to wrestle to the ground. This sense that no matter how stupid it sounds, what an idiot I may be for THINKING these thoughts, this is exactly what I am meant to be, where I am meant to be it. Right here, right now: ¾ cuppa coffee, money slipping away, having so recently released a dearly beloved and beautiful Mom…wondering for the thousandth time what to do about John deLancie. As if there’s really anything I could ever DO about a John deLancie or whatever dreams I may conjure up. Except honor that it is just that – MY dream. My pull to destiny, the path I am to follow while puttering around on this side of the veil.

Today's Sunrise Over the Bluffs of Point Dume

There are only two ways to live your life. One as though nothing is a miracle. The other is as though everything is a miracle. …. Albert Einstein
6:23 Starbucks Trancas Three weeks since Mom passed. It’s been Time out of Time. Coming back to earth. Slow glowing sun rose this day over the tops of the bluffs at Point Dume. Suppose it might appear earlier from the top of Point Dume itself but I’d have to get up there to find out.
Brian, my Schwab advisor, called to ask if I wanted help with asset allocation. That I was positioned a little aggressively if I would be needing the money soon. And that’s the truth. I’ve been staying invested in the market for the opportunity for reward – but there’s also its shadow – the risk of negative return – not to be ignored. When we might need the money to be there, advice is to reposition more securely, with less potential for return. Thank you, Brian. Didn’t want to hear that and I need to hear that. Need to do something about expenses. Rent. OK. the day after Memorial Day, a decision is to be….friend Jan interruptus. OK Divine Spirit – a creative solution is called for. Not the same old musings from this seat from this MIND that want to figure it out. CAUGHT! Rick came by and said “You got things goin’ already this morning – you’re thinking!” So yes thank You Spirit for letting me hear that I am seen. I am so not alone. Boy I’m glad I came here. Jan had just said how they think of me when they see the sun rise. That’s my very favorite thing about this crazy life of mine. When people say that very thing – that I’m thought of when they see the sun rise.
OK then let’s set an intention for Memorial Day. Oh oh – for me myself and God. Um but it really works better with others involved. No it doesn’t. Yes it does. No it doesn’t. Yes it does and no it doesn’t. Open, open, open. This is IT. The golden opportunity to make my dream come true. Only I can declare it so.

Today's Sunrise Over a Pounding Surf

If one is lucky, a solitary fantasy can totally transform one million realities. …Maya Angelou
6:35 Starbucks Cross Creek Mmmm coffee in a real cup is soo good. Lady behind said I’m so elegant. No wonder I love this place.
I went first to Marine at 4th in Santa Monica for the sunrise. Colors were vibrant on the wide marine layer so I headed up to Malibu for emergence and w-a-i-t-e-d. The story of my life. I’m waiting my life away.
Good thing Jess posted on Facebook that last night was the “Lost” series ender or I’d have missed it. Well, missed recording it anyway. I fell asleep at 10 so have a good 1-1/2 hours to watch.They did a great job on the  acknowledgement and re-cap show from 7-9. Coffee’s still good.

Today's Sunrise Over a High Surf Advisory

Success is living your life actualized. Being who you are created to be. Being fully engaged in what you know is your purpose. …Stephen Hultquist

Caught the sunrise-not over Point Dume then headed down to the Malibu Pier for this sun-having-risen, amazingly bright.  6:40 Starbucks - Malibu Colony - Maybe I should write the blog in the moment. Not ahead over coffee but yet derived from coffee writing. Maybe read it then write it and then carry that forward to a new movie – in the Seinfeld-ian tradition – based on nothing. Ooo looked up to see smoke unfurling – from an invisible cigarette in an invisible hand. Use the invisible hand – Let the invisible hand guide the writing.
Long been aware of the inner twisty feeling of transcribing and editing. Give it up. There’s nothing sacred here. Let go. I might just accidentally be brilliant. But like the sunrise you sometimes have to wait for it. And you sometimes have to tone it down. And know that it’s there even when eyes show otherwise. It always leaves its trace.

Today's Sunrises Triumphant from the Malibu Pier

You’re going to be haunted by all the dreams you didn’t try. …Michael Bernard Beckwith
Starbucks Cross Creek 6:32 Having stopped at Malibu Colony but they’re closed ‘til 7 for maintenance. Way bright sunrise. And it’s chilly in here. How did I get there 20 minutes early? Drove fast I guess. Way long pumping truck goes by. Yeah they do that on Saturday I guess.
Went to the Pier. PCH was all parked up with surfers. Just a couple of fishermen. Oh my there’s another pumper, half the size of the first one. Oh God I’m so tired of waiting. And I have to pee so maybe this won’t be so interesting – as it usually is. Editor’s up and running though.
Change. That’s all it takes is just a little change. Watched 4 hours of Grey’s Anatomy, well 4x40=160 minutes, 2-2/3 hours without commercials – including the season finale. Oh my, whole lotta shootin’ goin’ on. Mercifully spared us the will-Derek-live-or-die cliff hanger. Killed off 2 minor characters. It was exciting to a point – the point where it got implausible that the shooter would so successfully evade the SWAT teams. Even after they shot him, he totally got away and ultimately killed himself.

Today's Sunrise Over Bruce Willis' House

Thoughts are not arrows shot indiscriminately into the air; they are boomerangs. …Richard Paul Evans
Starbucks Cross Creek 6:38 Jeez almost an hour since sunrise. Got to Point Dume on time for the sunrise-not and then a bitty splash of color. So I headed back to the Malibu pier hoping to catch emergence along the way and alleluia. I got my very favorite wave of golden shadow pouring over the mountain – a shot I like to call “Sunrise Over Bruce Willis’ House.” It’s a summer solstice/marine layer phenomenon that we’re seeing for the first time this year.

Today's Sunrise Blasts Over the Mountains in Malibu

Don't live down to expectations. Go out there and do something remarkable. ...Wendy Wasserstein

Got the not-so-great sunrise over Bruce Willis’ house. It’s full out brightness overwhelms the camera even with adjusted settings. I know better. This time of year, when the sunrise is at its earliest, I need to get up even 10 minutes earlier to make the trek to Point Dume where it can be captured nearer the horizon, less overwhelming. Not that I set an alarm clock. I’m always awake and truth is that hour or so before I get up is the very worst time of day for me. Nothing’s right. Nothing’s possible….perhaps tomorrow I’ll just skip that.

Veiled Sunrise in Malibu

The best is yet to be.   … Robert Browning

Having returned from a solid sunrise-not at Point Dume, today's glorious sun rises behind a veil of fog in Malibu while a sea gull waits patiently for its showing. We know it's there even when it does this. Went on to Starbucks to hug Daryl who I hadn't seen for a month. The visit took the space of writing morning pages. Gave that space to being - then and writing now. It's all good.

Sunrise-Not Envelops the Malibu Pier

5:59 Starbucks Cross Creek, Malibu Home again. Life does go on.
Pulled the first pages of my movie from the outside pocket of my portfolio and this makes me happy.    It’s a gray rainy day and I’m happy.   My Mother has waltzed to the other side of the veil and I am happy.